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Read if you can handle the truth if not then move on.......

No matter what Id say

You were always right

You hurt me in everway that you could

& I didnt understand why you did the things you did

Its like you meant to care

But you never questioned yourself why?

Its not a big deal

I just didnt like it or ever will

Im scared of what you'll do

Cause you do have Issues

& I wouldnt know what to do

You scare me beyond believes

You think your doing good

Cause thats all you think you know

I hate the things you do

You control me like no other

Im never in the mood

You dont care you always choose

Since its always all been up to you

Your such a loser I hate you

Razors running through my veins

Water running down my face

Bathtub full of blood & pain

Im just to scared to face whats really there

I just dont know what to say

dont know right & wrong anymore

Im ashamed to say that I did what I did

Im just to scared & sorry to say goodbye

though you do deserve that atleast,

its the end of my time

Iv cut my life short with the sharpest of the bunch

the razor of despair

I love you baby boy!

but its just not worth it anymore..

Im just confused in what to say.....

your time will be up soon just not as short as mine......

goodbye....

I dont know what to do

I dont know what to say

I just wanna be with you

I cant even think what to write

I miss knowing what to do

I just wanna please you

Im so scared I just dont wanna loose you

I dont even know if I have you

I dont wanna think I do

Im sorry for everything I do

Im sorry for getting jealous

I know I wasnt the only one

SORRY I over-reacted

I didnt know what else to do

I just like you so much

Im just a pathedic FOOL

2 Think I could hold on2 Something So good

I screwed up again

I dont really know how

But I know I DID & thats all that counts

Is that I know I did wrong

I told you I was fucked up

& That I never do anything right

I dont deserve you

As much as I wish I did

Im just not good enough

But Its okay I guess

Im not a very good prize Im not big enough

I dont think Im worth anybodies time

Im sorry I wasted Yours

Since Im suposebly just playing a game

You Deserve It

Listening to everything you say

Cant speak for myself

Not till your out of the way

Just wanna let go

Cause I cant take it anymore

Its just not fair anymore

Why wont you just let go

I just finished fixing all my sores

So they wouldnt hurt anymore

But now your back

& my face is all black

Dont wanna go back

Cant take the rest

My chest is hurting so bad

I dont wanna go back

You can go fuck yourself

Cause you deserve whatever you get

No matter how harsh it is

Pay backs a bitch

& thats just what you get

No matter how much you might regret

You still did it to begin with

Doesnt matter how bad you feel

You still deserve it all in the end

No matter who's on your side

You still did wrong

You used all your strength

You pushed me right over the edge

Thanks again.....!

I Ignored and didnt stare at all

I just sat & Ignored

Thought about all the things you said

They wern't at all kind at all

They Upset me so much

You probably didnt even notice my sadness

You just let me be

Didnt have no care in the world

You just didnt seem to care

Wish you saw how much it hurt

Owell you dont have to deal with the pain

Owell what can I say

You dont control your own

Your so mean when it comes Down to it all

Everybody Saw it Except me of course

nobody understood how much I cared

but you just didnt know what to care for

so I was just another lost girl

"2 YOU"

Dead*

In the dark corner

I see your face, your eyes, your mouth

towards me coming slowly

Dont know what to do

im already black & blue

Im scared into telling the truth

im just so confused

im screaming inside but outloud too

your screaming at me

for nothing at all but thats nothing unusual

I dont know what I did wrong

Until you threw me againsed the wall

Im screaming outloud

So you can hear how I feel

YOUR DEAD TO ME

no matter what you might say

your not coming back

Iv sent you to your grave

rotting into pieces

the tables have turned

I finally got my way

I can finally be free

of everything you did to me

no matter what anybody might say your dead to me

you can rot in your grave

cause thats what you deserve

told you time would tell

cause everything is all much better now....

I miss you so much

I just dont know what to say to you

Im sorry for being me

But that will never change

Im sorry Im not a puppet

Sorry thats not my kind of job

Or where Id wanna be

I just wanna be happy with you

And without the 24-hour arguments now

They were never there to begin with

Your just so far away

But at the same time your always right there with me

Youve been there Sorry I got jealous

Thats not really my fault

Thats just straight out

"HUMAN NATURE"

& I cant really change that

I wish you wouldnt be mad

Im trying to make you happy

I really dont see what I did wrong to you

Im trying so hard to figure out

Im trying so hard

Not to screw up

But I guess thats just part of my

"HUMAN NATURE"

I dont know why you like me

I dont know what you see

Ovesly not that much

If your willing to let go That easily

Id do anything for you My minds running blank

I dont know what to think anymore

I guess you just shut the door

& Deciding to leave me out in the "FREEZING COLD"

Fuck thats not unusual

Im use to being used

Iv been use to it all my life

Nothings ever going to change

Cause everything I want in life

Just crashes & Burns & Its always all my fault

Im sorry Im not perfect CHRIS

Thats not really my fault cause last time I checked

YOU WERNT PERFECT EITHER

I didnt raise myself as much as it seems like I did

But my Bitch mom raised me

So no matter how hard I try

I'll never be able to change & be perfect for you...

"DAMN"

Afraid to show the real you

Your perfect in everyway

Wish it was meant to be

But it never was

It'll never be

You just cant trust the things that are said

Always thinking red

But I love the things you said

Cant get over it

Not as easy as I thought I could

Its like you've disappeared

Leaving me nothing to do but breath

Never near to see

Always wanted you to be free

Didnt wanna leave you be

Cant bare to live without thee

"PLEASE DONT"

Your starting to scare me

You sit there all silent & mad at me

Im so confused cause your saying nothing at all

Then you always turn it out to be about me

No matter what it might be

Your always on your knee's "begging please"

But I cant take it anymore its not worth my time

Your just to scared to be you so you pretend

When all you have to do

Is leave me be

Since you dont like me

Im trying my best

But it doesnt seem good enough

Atleast for your seeing eyes

You always say you like me

You always kept me hooked

Why do you say it if you dont really mean it

I could be wrong

But you just seem "TOO" mad

But hey thats nothing new atleast at me

When it has to do with you

You just seem mad at the world

To stay true & be honest with me

Im sorry Im not perfect

Like the rest of the girls you where with lucky them

Im sorry Im not like the rest

I just wanted to be happy

I just wanna be liked without being lied to

Sorry you didnt like what I had to say

Just thought I wouldnt "LIE TO YOU"

Which I wasnt planning on doing Anyways

Id rather have you mad at me

Then to "LIE TO YOU"

Sorry Im honest

I never knew that was a CRIME!

Not knowing what to do anymore

Always feeling blue

Scared to now the truth

Your always there

But Im still always scared

Dont know what to do

Always wondering what went on

Im not strong at all

No where near doesnt seem fair

So dont hold on

Just let it go

Dont keep me on hold

I'll stand in the cold

Cause I dont wanna get the door......

If you know how pain & misery feels

You will know what Iv been through & am still going through......